My Broken Hert

August 27, 2020

“In solitude there is healing. Speak to your soul. Listen to your heart. Sometimes in the absence of noise we find the answer.”

Dodinsky

How I long for solitude and a quiet place. Somewhere I can go to rest and find some peace. It seems like my life has accelerated and everything is moving in warp speed. New York has gone through a major shift. What was once a bustling city full of art, culture and vitality is now somber and lost. Walking down the streets, you see massive homelessness, boarded up shops, and empty buildings. It is an eerie feeling that tugs at my soul to witness this change that happened in a blink of an eye. I have taken a huge step back. Iv’e retreated into my own womb because I am processing all these massive changes that humanity is going through. I managed to gracefully move through all the chaos unscathed until the last month. But being in the midst of all the depression that has taken so many spirits and lives has pulled at my heart strings.

The world is in a time of crisis. America, particularly is experiencing  division and opposition like never before. This is an election year and it has been the most confusing, misinformed, heated, controversial and outright opinionated battle that seems to be separating all of us. I go into deep thought and think of how we came to this place. What happened to pull people apart? Were these feelings of anger,hatred resentment, and prejudice always lurking beneath the surface, just waiting to reveal itself? Did we become so complacent and numb to not want to step into the night and see our shadows?

I Find myself connecting with nature more and more. With all the troubles and confusion in the world right now, I invite you too, to hold the space and go within, where there is always a warm sunny place that will lift your spirits and bring peace to your heart. The empathy I have for humanity has flooded my soul with so much love. I have tears of sorrow and joy. I know if I can keep my heart open, even when it hurts, goodness will prevail.


Let Your Heart to the Talking

July 29, 2020

I love when I’m able to connect with total strangers in the most deep and profound way! Today, I was teaching some dance classes via Zoom. I am so grateful for this platform to be able to connect with women to help them move their bodies and ease their minds. Well, I then went to check into the office I go to for the Chamber of Commerce to send some emails, check phone calls etc. I am the only one in this office unless I get an unexpected visitor like today. So I buzzed them in since the door is locked. This very nice lady was asking about what there is to do in town, and asking for brochures and other material to take with her.

Well, we starting having a conversation and in less then 5 minutes we connected on such a deep level, sharing things about each other that would take weeks to months to reveal, if at all!

We both felt each others heart and the energy was enormous! We both had tears in our eyes. She was so grateful that I was the one in the office, and so open to be of service, and I was grateful she was so nice. In a world that is portraying  hate, violence, anger and other negative emotions, I don’t see this. My experience is witnessing compassion, love, gratitude, and kindness. Our attention goes to were our energy flows. All it takes is a shift in consciousness to stay connected to the vibration of love. Look for what’s good.

That encounter lifted both our energy and spirits. The ripple effect of this encounter is how we begin to change the world. We can go deep and connect from the heart in a nano-second. We can find common ground with all our differences. All it takes is a willingness to keep your heart open and wanting to be of service.

As she was ready to leave, she asked me what my name was, I said it was Monica. I asked her what her name was and she said Veronica!

It doesn’t get any better then that! We are all connected.


Just Be Nice

July 15, 2020

I love Sunday Mornings. There seems to be this extra amount of peacefulness and serenity on Sunday mornings. Maybe it’s just me, but that’s how I feel. This Sunday, I woke up around 5:30 AM  and felt so calm and tranquil. I was sort of in a lucid dream state, mesmerized by a vibration of love, light and angelic beings. It was so sweet. I have a few rituals I do every morning, like journal, meditate, prayer, stretch, feed the cat, feed the birds outside, water the garden and then make a cup of coffee and read something spiritual. Sundays, I take the time to read longer. I am reading John E. Fetzer and the Quest For the New Age. It is fascinating!

So, then I decided that I was going to take my bike to the supermarket to purchase some garlic, which I needed for a recipe I was preparing for that evenings dinner. I got on my bike and headed to the store which was about a mile and a half away. A little way down on my journey, I saw a young man walking in the opposite direction I was heading, we caught each others attention and greeted each other Good Morning. The weather was simply gorgeous! After another block I noticed I forgot my mask! Oh No! I still haven’t got in the habit of bringing it every where. So, I turned back to go home to get it. That’s when I encountered this young man again. He saw me and I mentioned to him that I forgot my mask and have to go home to get it. He said, no, you don’t have to do that. I have an extra one. He was so nice. He gave me a fresh package, not even open.

He insisted I take it. He was so kind. Then he said here I have this pair of socks, again a package not even opened. I said no thank you, that you are so nice but you should give them to someone else. Again he insisted. He said they were meant for me. He was an Angel, sent at the perfect place and the perfect time. I was so happy and grateful for his presence. BTW, he was a Black Man. Which shouldn’t matter, and doesn’t matter to me. The only reason I am mentioning it is because, if one act of violence can stir so much attention and disruption in our world, One act of kindness, can and should create attention for peace, love and compassion. I just didn’t record this act of kindness to broadcast it on the news and social media. However it needs to go viral! I wanted to give him a big hug, but we both knew that wouldn’t be wise during these times, so we bumped fists. Did I attract this soul by my high vibration I was feeling this morning? Was he really an Angel? Was it a coincidence? I don’t know. All I know is that he was nice and nice speaks volumes. The more you can get into alignment with love, light and compassion, the more kindness will spread. What can you do to share kindness? Just be nice!

With Gratitude,

Monica

 

 


Practice the Pause

June 17, 2020

How hard is it to keep cool under pressure? For me it has been a practice. I would be okay with strangers and not react, but with people close to me, well that was much harder. That knee jerk reaction would just get the better of me. I would say things I later would regret. It also started to become a pattern. Every time my older daughter would do or say something that I thought wasn’t right, I would open my big mouth and put my two cents in. This would go on and on until I finally became aware of what about the dynamics of our relationship I was playing a part of.  I admit, I do not like the way she chooses to live her life but she is an adult and I must learn to pause. It ain’t easy!

Practicing this has made all the difference in myself and my relationship with her. Not that she has changed her habits or life style, but I have created a space for being present without judgement or resentment. She really is my greatest teacher. Teaching me patience, acceptance, non-judgement, love, compassion, peace and happiness. Who is your greatest teacher? Do you have  someone close to you that presses all those painful buttons in you? Once I looked deeper into our relationship I saw unhealed parts in me that she was reflecting back. Love can be messy. It can be painful. It can be raw and vulnerable. Practicing the pause, allows for healing to take place. It allows you to surrender to the moment and just sit in whatever is bubbling up in you without reacting. However uncomfortable it may feel in the moment, stay with the pause and it will eventually begin to dissolve into peace, and that peace will radiate out into others.

Listen deeply. breath deeply, and love deeply. It is here where you will release all those old patterns of hurt and suffering. The world is hurting right now. People are hurting. I have learned to pause, to be mindful of what I am doing and how I am being that either contributes to the suffering or contributes to happiness and peace. What are you contributing to?  Here’s a cute little video to bring some joy into your day!


Home Sweet Home

May 20, 2020

“When one’s expectations are reduced to zero,one really appreciates everything one does have.”

Stephen Hawking

About a year and a half ago, I was invited to go to an event that was celebrating the life and work of Stephen Hawking’s.  It took place in this little Bohemian like theater down in the Village of New York. Well, being a big fan of his work I jumped at the chance to go. There were all kinds of artists, brainiacs, and lay people like myself who came to get our minds blown. I wasn’t disappointed. It was an interactive evening of entertainment, discussions and some theater that displayed the big bang theory, dying stars, black holes and how the universe came to be through a tiny dot of singularity.

 

So what has this to do with what’s going on in the world today? Well, everything if we can open our hearts and minds to expand our consciousness. If we allow ourselves to look beyond ourselves and on to a bigger picture, we can feel a connection with the universe.  Fear has gripped and paralyzed the majority of so many that is difficult for them to see beyond their comfort zone which has now vanished for them. They say stay home, but what is home? A house is not a home. A home is where your heart is, and your heart is in you, around you, and everywhere you give of yourself. Your heart like the universe can collapse into a black hole or expand to radiate love.

 

When we realize that we are all one. no I, no we no nothing but a single point, maybe, just maybe we can let go of the fear that keeps us in bondage. Home sweet home, is in the heart. Your heart and mine. One Heart! All Love!

 

  (after Stephen Hawking)

Do you sometimes want to wake up to the singularity
we once were?

so compact nobody
needed a bed, or food or money—

nobody hiding in the school bathroom
or home alone

pulling open the drawer
where the pills are kept.

For every atom belonging to me as good
Belongs to you.   Remember?
There was no   Nature.    No
them.   No tests
to determine if the elephant
grieves her calf    or if

the coral reef feels pain.    Trashed
oceans don’t speak English or Farsi or French;

would that we could wake up   to what we were
— when we were ocean    and before that
to when sky was earth, and animal was energy, and rock was
liquid and stars were space and space was not

at all — nothing

before we came to believe humans were so important
before this awful loneliness.

Can molecules recall it?
what once was?    before anything happened?

No I, no We, no one. No was
No verb      no noun
only a tiny tiny dot brimming with

is is is is is

All   everything   home

 

 


Between Worlds

April 29, 2020

  “Everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the  last of the human freedoms- to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way.”

Viktor Frankl

I feel like I am living between worlds.  I still have one foot in the old world, a world that is quickly vanishing and my other foot in a brave new world. When will I allow myself to totally embrace the new and let go of the old? Maybe it is being courageous enough to just walk right into it. Maybe all I have to do is leave behind all the baggage of  limiting thoughts, beliefs, habits, behaviors and fears that have created all the upheaval in the world. Could it be that easy? Does it take a crisis to recognize this truth?

 

So many questions. There are many people who are hurting more than ever. The massive changes in the world has caused havoc in peoples  lives. Alcoholism, child abuse, domestic violence are at an all time high. In Naturopathic terms, this is called a healing crisis. Everything is coming to the surface to be healed. All our fears, worries, insecurities, and darkness that we want to hide is all being revealed. The corruption, deceit, and cover-ups are bubbling up to the surface. Everything is being exposed.

Staying calm in the midst of the upheaval takes faith in knowing that everything is for the greater good. The divine operation is always for expansion and greater expression. This means something beyond what has gone before. Something entirely new. However, this understanding comes from deep contemplation and practice. Practicing being mindful and to observe my emotions, is where the answers to these questions reveal themselves. To listen and feel my feelings without judgement. To be compassionate with myself and love myself deeply. When I do this, I am ready to step into the brave new world. I then am ready to let go of the old world of limitation and put both feet fully committed into the unknown. A world that is full of miracles and wonder. If you are feeling like you’re between worlds. Let’s take that leap of faith together. Are you ready?


We Are All Connected

April 9, 2020

We are all connected, to each other, biologically. To the earth, chemically. To the rest of the universe anatomically… Not only are we in the universe, the universe is in us.

 

 

This realization is becoming more evident then ever before. Every day I wake up asking for guidance. I ask how may I be of service to humanity? The more time I have to reflect on this understanding the more liberated I feel.  We are social, emotional, energetic and spiritual beings. Knowing that we are connected is the most reassuring part of being human. We all want to be loved….

The more you know yourself the more you will know others. The more you know others the more compassion you will have. During these times of uncertainty ask yourself, what am I afraid of? What are the thoughts and feelings that are coming up for me at this time? I know a few friends who within the last week have transcended. There is sadness and empathy that I am experiencing. It’s a difficult time for so many.

 

How do we rise above and seek comfort during these times? By realizing that we are all connected. That there is a cosmic web that binds everything and everyone together. There is no separation. Every thought we think, to every act we take, is all affecting the whole. The more you can lift your vibration, the higher the frequency you will project  The higher the frequency you project the more connected you will feel.

The more connected you feel, the more love will radiate to and through you. The more love you exude, the more light will prevail. The more light that is emanating on the earth, the less darkness and fear can effect you.

 Breath this in! We are all in this together. 

Blessings & love,

Monica

 


Another Day Of Life

February 5, 2020

 

“Life is fragile. We’re not guaranteed a tomorrow so give it everything you’ve got.”

Tom Cook

This really hit home when I heard the news about Kobe Bryant, his 13-year-old daughter and 7 other people who were tragically killed in a helicopter accident.  Then, the very next day was the Holocaust Remembrance Day, which is near and dear to my heart because both my parents were survivors of this horrific time in history, where many members of my family were killed, along with countless others.

It really made me think of how life isn’t guaranteed to anyone and how we must embrace this precious gift. (That’s why they call it the present)

Then last week, I had an MRI scan on my brain which showed a 5-centimeter cyst in my frontal lobe. It is benign; however, it is something that needs to be closely watched to make sure it doesn’t grow or interfere with my cognitive and motor functions.

 

The message was loud and clear! Live my best life now! Don’t wait until tomorrow to begin doing what brings you joy. Love your life, give it your all and don’t be afraid to express your dreams. Work hard, play more, be kind, laugh lots and most of all create. Start right now to create your best life. We’re here for such a brief time, so let’s make the most of it.

 

 


Happy New Year!

January 1, 2020

 

Happy New Year!

What an exciting time to be alive. Never has humanity witnessed so much change. We truly are on the cutting edge of a quantum leap in evolution. However, for you to thrive in 2020, you must have a clear vision on what you want to create and amplitude that picture with an elevated emotion.

The best way to do this, is to write down what it is you want to create and meditate on it in a relaxed state. Choose words and pictures that have a vibrational match to your vision and abracadabra watch what happens.

The words you speak and write are very powerful. It’s like magic. If you want to create something wonderful for 2020, be mindful of the words you use and the emotion behind them. You are literally creating as you speak. What do you want to bring into your life? Good health, happiness, joy, prosperity, friendship, love and all good things are all possible. Keeping your focus on what you desire and giving energy to positive words, thoughts, feelings and actions will manifest your desires.

Every year, I have a single word that I use as my guiding light. This year it is FOCUS. For me this signifies concentration on my purpose and life’s work. It will allow me to be more present in everything I do and everyone I am with. To give my full attention on being in the now. What is your word? What word describes what you want to create for 2020?

That one word can open worlds you never knew existed if you follow your heart and allow it to guide you. Maybe it’s love, abundance, joy, passion or whatever you choose, but live every day with that word being the center point in which you dedicate everything you do. So, as the world turns another year into the future, you too can turn your attention and focus on your best year. Together, each and everyone of us can create a more peaceful, loving and healthier world if we focus on manifesting it and create it through our words. Use them wisely.

All the very best,

Monica


Happy Holidays

December 18, 2019

 

 

Happy Holidays

What the world needs now is more kindness, compassion and peace.

Wishing everyone a most joyous, peaceful and loving Holiday.

 

Prayer of St Francis

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Amen.